Yesterday and Tomorrow

There are little boys sprouting up all around me.

Yesterday, Tristan walked three or four steps from the coffee table to the couch. He got about halfway between the two and stopped when he realized what he was doing and he chuckled his signature "heh heh" then took another couple of fast steps before he could lose his nerve. Yesterday he was 9 months and 9 days old and will probably walk a couple of months earlier than his brother did. I was hoping his common sense would catch up with this speed for movement, but it doesn't look like it will happen!

Tomorrow, Julius is starting school. First day of school. I've been saying that to myself over and over today as if saying it over and over will make it more real. I keep worrying I'm going to make a big doofus of myself tomorrow. It seems weird that I can take my son to the hospital for 10 surgeries and make it through that, but dropping him off at school seems like it will send me into orbit. I'm not ready for my little boy to grow up.

We've taken this life transition as an opportunity to get him to be more independent and sleep in his room all night and go to bed consistently at 8PM. We were expecting hysteria and arguments, but it's gone really well. The first night he asked his dad, "Why do I have to be in bed and Tristan doesn't?" My husband explained that Julius would have the opportunity to do lots of firsts in his life... be the first to go to school, drive a car... and Julius interjected, "And go to college." Dad said, "Yes, go to college, too." And, beaming, Julius said, "I can move far away!"

So, already my 4 year old son is planning his escape from home. Is he mature or does he hate living with his mother? I can't decide. :-)

His teacher is an old schoolmate of mine. We were in the same graduating class. That also seems exceptionally weird to me. Several times today my mind has drifted back to our high school days. I thought about the way we were back then and I wonder if someone had come back in time and told me that one day I would have two children and Lisa would be their teacher I would have never believed it in a million years.

I would have thought it was a life too ordinary for me. And some days, the dark days, I do think my life is too ordinary. But on other days I marvel at my good fortune. I live in a great place, modest but nice home, wonderful countryside, two adorable boys, hard working hubby, my own business, great friends.

All in all, I really couldn't ask for any better yesterdays and tomorrows.